has just begun! I finished my law school finals 2 days ago and I could not be happier to have the month off!
Champagne Toasts!
Party Bus Antics
So many happy faces! Ya, so we like got a party bus to celebrate the end of our first semester of law school. It was so fun. I was so happy I almost cried several times throughout the night. Needless to say, we were all in very poor shape yesterday, but it was just.so.worth.it.
A little bit about the past month of my life:
During the last month of the semester, law school turns into a total cluster fuck (excuse my french). You spend an entire month trying to fit what seems like an infinite amount of material into your tiny brain while still trying to absorb an entire month’s worth of new material. I have never studied harder in my life than I did for my Contracts final alone. I studied more for that one final that I did for an entire set of exams in undergrad and grad school. Literally, I think I studied more for that one final then I did in an entire 3 quarters of undergrad combined. And then I had to do it all over again. Twice.
The weird thing about that experience is that I have never been pushed mentally before in my life. Tell me to run 12 miles. Done. Tell me to do a 7 minute wall sit. Done. I might cry a little bit, but I’m used to being pushed physically and I’m always proud of myself for making my body meet the challenge and I love the feeling of accomplishment that comes with it. I have never, ever, had this experience as an intellectual. I pretty much have always gotten things and I don’t usually have to work that hard to understand. I don’t pull all nighters and I know exactly how much I need to study to get an A, A-, B+, B and so on. The tests were always predictable and I was pretty much always up for the “challenge.”
This was completely different. If you ask me how I think I did on my finals, I would tell you I have no idea. I literally have no idea. I could have failed or I could have gotten an A+. The entire thing felt completely arbitrary and I was just racing the entire time to get everything I know on the page to show that I had some knowledge. Nothing felt in my control. I am proud to say that I did not cry a single time nor have a single meltdown the entire time. I came really close once about a week and a half before my contracts final, but some how pulled it together and managed not to let a single tear fall from my eyes.
When I look back on the month, I’m not sure I feel proud as much as I just feel relieved. I am now in one of those blissful I don’t care states of mind and the outcome just really doesn’t matter to me right now. All I can hope is that I’m still enrolled in law school for the second semester of my 1L year so I get to continue on my awesome journey towards becoming a legal badass.
In the mean time, since I’ve been gone for so long, I have some major catching up to do in my blogging world. Plenty of recipes coming your way and fun updates on my one month of bliss!
Until then, stay safe and stay warm.
SKs,
Bri
